Dream

So, this is not the post about our first date, but I really wanted to share this randomness on here before I forget about it. The other night, I had a dream with Jonathan in it. I love when I have dreams and Jonathan is in them because it makes me feel like he still watches over me and knows what is going on in my life and is aware of me and that makes me feel better because not being able to see and talk to loved ones that have passed on is one of the hardest things about them being gone. So, I feel like dreams that I have with him in them are my way I can still see and talk to him.
So, I had this dream the other night and the jist of it was that he was coming home from a mission and all of his family was there and all of my family was there and it took awhile before I got to talk to him because he seemed to be really busy doing things, but when he saw me he took me off to a private place and I just started crying to him saying I hope you don't hate me for getting married while you were gone and having kids, it doesn't mean I love you any less. He said back to me why would I be mad, I still love you, I love your kids and I am just like their dad.
I seriously woke up super happy because I do sometimes think in the back of my mind does Jonathan hate me for getting remarried and I am sure he doesn't. He knows that I needed to move on and have a happy, successful, and enjoyable life. It doesn't mean I love him any less. He always will hold a special place in my heart that nobody will ever come close to.
Anyway, I just wanted to write this down so I did not forget my dream. I always feel more comforted and closer to him when I have these type of dreams. I feel like he is aware and cares for me still even though he is on the other side.