Power of the Spirit

Not long after Jonathan and I were married, I started having these thoughts of Jonathan dying young. They weren't just thoughts like what would I do etc., when I had these thoughts they felt so real like it was actually going to happen, so in my mind I would just think to myself well ok he is going to die around 40. I can handle that, I will have my kids to keep me busy and we will have lived a fairly long life together and I would ignore the thought. I never told anyone I had been having these thoughts because I literally thought I was just crazy, I mean come on, who really thinks of their husband dying when I had just gotten married. The closer it got to Jonathan getting in the accident, I had the thoughts more frequent and more intense like "this is going to happen, be ready"! As I look back on those thoughts, I realize it was the Spirit warning and preparing me but I obviously was not listening and so he had to hit me a little harder on the head as it got closer to that awful day...